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Synthetic coffee shades match my skin   Like the makeup I buy and wear   Masking the ice sheared through   A see through mirror of plastic   Chemicals applied everyday religiously With perfection I comfort myself through dreams A male dancer wraps his arms around me As I shake uncontrollably from the stress The fear of what has happened And how I want to set myself free But am so afraid of what it feels like So soothingly smoothly softly sounds The flight of my wings that no one can ever see The struggles within that rip them from development   So I can sell a bit and celebrit   Some of the failures to rise even greater.

Complicated enough to be more simpler than they are now: the best alone time to get work done is on the porcelain throne   defined by high ceilings and walls sealings and locks Textured tiles tripping   steps on the floor to sit Ponder and write expressively   How I truly feel exploding, releasing, vomiting everything out   to feel better afterwards only to repeat more often than not Frustration leads me to the contemplation   Of my own stonewalls.

I was in Hogwarts when the nargles came around   Gnarling their little faces off until the freshmen   GenderEd the scene of school sleepily slapping Sloppy papers around I find myself deeply laughing At how fast my hands fly on the piano   Man is it good to be a woman to conquer the world At its first furled fueled fight for fierceness   Until drugs sweetened the playground Melting studies into candies Popped endlessly drunken ‘till love means Sleep after death take a breadth of your   Portfolio it’s not too much of a tutorial   On how to succeed in life it’s your strife As to why my surroundings planted seeds Of pap

A roller coaster of ups and downs I wish I turned out different; emailing emotions effectively organized my future career and mindful moment of panic attacking stressing crying calming eat it all away I hate everything about myself from the failures to how everything I'm doing isn't enough yet. The mirrors shattered shards make the sand soft ocean waves smoothing them out the stress fears and future seers of gloom My heart feels heavy From the sweaty weight Held inside I did comply But I'm not gonna lie Fully in my truths because What really sooths me Is the reality where i can be me The moment I realize how wrong u are I am feel not

I miss you so much inside I wish to confide   That I am scared Sacred sounds silly slightly Off these days   Observing flight’s talking pattern   Ominous omens amending Amen; authority commands To kill the sands small salty Properties powering properly I pull sugar out of my coat Not seeming like a goat   I sprinkle them with the grains Of sand wheying in on pains Wounds scars scrubbed over Don’t close your eyes   Time will fly by and disappear   And become your seer To look into the past   As a blast to cast   A spell onto your old self Wishing you had the wealth   Of courage defeating stealth Stand tall Authoritie